Wandering Love of a Guy....

Thought about it several times,but never got a clear reply..
People say sink in love but I always wanted to fly....

I enjoyed the journey of finding true mate,
But when i got one i felt this cant be my fate...

It was not the fear of unseen responsibilities,
I was a tough rock to handle all calamities...

There was something else which made me wandering..
My heart always made my mind go pondering..

I was not able to choose between my mind or heart..
Both always moved quite strangely apart...

There was always some love for everyone,
But I was not firm to settle with one...

I tried to change and make things go right,
Could not handle it more than a fort-nite..

Caught in the loop but people thought me mad,
I somehow started liking to be bad...

I dont know which path, my life will take me to,
No one tells me and i have got no clue...

What i gain and lose,let time deicde,
I still go with my heart keeping mind aside....

Sometimes I want to Pause....

Sometimes I want to pause and change the track of life,
At times I do want to stay silent rather than to jive..

There is no demanding goal that I am chasing for,
In path of life I don't know which way I am heading for..

Its not that I am discontent with whatever I am today,
But this is not the way I want my life to portray...

I tried to become somewhat a sophisticated and focused person,
But it was like cheating myself and pretending to be someone...

I could not change the self who is staying from so long in my heart,
Somewhere it says don't lie to me, I am your inseparable part...

Remaining a dumb for others but still not loosing my side,
I opted to continue the paused track with a selfless pride...

Kidzzzz Way....

I want to live my life in a Kid's way,
Which has no worries, Only fun and play...

A life without any chase,
That's how I want to rephrase..

I don't want to earn so much money and accomplishment ,
That buying chocolate seems no more an achievement..

A life which is not compared with a race,
Where i am not forced to follow anyones's trace....

I don't want to grow old to be left alone in despair,
When I still need that love and care...

A life where I can be myself without any pretension,
When I stumble whole world pays attention..

I know it is not possible to be a kid any more,
Crude realities will make my life sore..

But deep inside I still keep that kid alive,
It makes my hard life, some what easy to survive...